It has been quite a long time since I have been on my blog. Since my last post I have become a professional stay at home mom and homemaker. I look back at some of my posts from a few years ago, and although my life looks so different now than it did 2 years ago, I am reminded of one constant in my life...God's goodness to me along the way. Blogging has always been a great outlet for me to track God's provision in my life and I'm bummed that the last few years haven't been logged because God has been so good and provided for my family in ways I could have never imagined. If I were asked a few years ago to describe what my life would look like in 2 years, I can promise you my plan looked different than God's...and that is the best part of my whole journey. God's plan supersedes what I think I need or the direction I see my life going.
As Bryan and I are going through this life as new parents (well our sweet Annabell is approaching a year old...not really sure how that happened), I have been on a roller coaster of emotions. I am blessed beyond measure to be able to stay home with our precious daughter, but with this desire came great sacrifice and a major shift in my identity. As Bryan and I have had many heart-to-hearts along the journey, I have expressed my inadequacies as I navigate my way through motherhood, budgeting, grocery shopping, cooking and all the things my life entails. I'm sure I'm not the only mom who happens upon the feelings of inadequacies from time to time. In the midst of these feelings, I have a craving to be the best mother to Annabell and the most wonderful wife to my dear husband, this is what God has called me to do. Focusing on my inadequacies and ways I wish my life looked different is simply a distraction to allowing God to completely use me to serve my family. God calls me to serve my family joyfully, sacrificially and with a grateful heart...after all, God has been incredibly good to me and my family. I'm not talking about the goodness that shows up in material possessions, although I am grateful to the good Lord for providing my family with a roof over our heads. God's goodness is apparent to me in the deep love my husband has for me, God's goodness shows up in the smile of my sweet daughter, God's goodness is there in the depth of my inadequacies because God finds me worthy to take on the task of caring for a family and a home. God's goodness is in the middle of struggle...because His word says that His grace is sufficient and I am reminded that my struggle is just a part of God's refining process in my life.
It is my prayer that my reflection of God's goodness in the joy and in the pain will be a reminder to me and to anyone who reads my blog that His sovereign plan for my life and yours is what we ought to desire. Not the things of this world, but to please Him in all that we do. We serve a good and holy God my friends.
Lord, may my humble life as a wife and a mom bring you Glory and honor.
"May the words of my mouth and this meditation of my heart be pleasing in your sight, Lord, my Rock and my Redeemer." Psalm 19:14
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